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"The Eyes Of The World Are Watching Now"
Jose Medellin
Hi ! People of the
world, the outside world I have not known in so long. My life is in
Black & White like the old Western movies. But unlike the movies
the good guys don't always finish first.
My name is Jose Medellin,
I am currently being held on Death Row, in the State that is at the top
of the list for Death Row population, 453, executions this year: 26,
as of 9/14/99. The State and government that also executes its children,
its retarded, its poor. This state is the Lone Star State of Texas
!
I am a Mexican national.
I came to Texas as a young boy along with the rest of my family. Not
like many that are not proud of their country and want to get away.
But just took a chance and opportunity at a brighter future. I am
a Mexican through and through !
Before I go too far off
in my Mexican pride. Like I will often do. Let me tell you more
about myself, and my life.
I'm 5'6" inches tall, weigh
165 pounds, dark brown hair and brown eyes. I am 24 years old.
I have been on Death Row for 5 years. I dropped out of school in the
9th grade, not because I couldn't handle the work, because if you give me
the time of day, you'll see that I've quite intelligent.
I had a plan, get my GED
and go home to join the Mexican military, would have joined here, but I'm
a Mexican, not a traitor :- ) I had everything in order, but as I said, the
world takes twists and turns when it gets ready to, no matter if you are ready
for the move.
Some of my hobbies are reading,
and of course I read military books, fiction, non fiction. I don't limit
myself to just that. Because soon as I get fixed on it, the world will
turn again. So I've learned to interest myself into other subjects,
plus I learned that with the mind, never set limits. Also, books can
take you anywhere in the world you want to go, the trouble is finding, and
getting that book. Good thing I have loving parents that have stood
by me, and when they can they send me books.
I also like to watch sports,
football, baseball which is my favourite. Go Astros ! Basketball
is cool also. But as of late women sports are hot, tennis. Go
Martina. Basketball, thank you Comets. And also soccer, love that
sport bra, well, thats not all, its fun to watch also .
Now, since I'm part of the
new Death Row unit in Livingston, Texas, I'm without TV and never will see
it again. No TVs on this unit. They say its a luxury.
But oh well, as long as
I got my radio, but don't get too happy for me yet, I'm without it now and
have been since May. I'm not on the right level to have those things.
Maybe in December.
I work out a lot as well.
Some to stay in shape and mostly to keep my blood and mind flowing, the
inactivity will kill you and drive you insane. Then you would wish
you were dead. After they get finished giving you all those drugs.
There's more details in
my life I would like to go into but I'll save that for later. So if
you seem interested in me, write to me and we can correspond.
Now to talk about conversing
through the mail with someone you don't know, or have a preconceived notion
that you might not get what you think you have coming meaning, myself.
Don't set boundaries. Please seek to know me, Jose, not a dead man
walking. I don't want sympathy or pity, I'd rather have your anger.
Don't feel sorry for me. I'm where I'm at because I made an adolescent
choice. Thats it ! Seek to know Jose, stay open that you can be my
friend. This is what I need now more than ever. Someone to talk
to, someone to share with. If you think you can have an open heart
to get to know who I've become not what I was. Then after that I'll
be willing to tell you who the boy was that got himself arrested for capital
murder. That way you can have a clear understanding of how far I have
come.
I've grown up behind bars
and if the state gets its wish I'll die behind a locked steel door (There's
no bars in the death chamber.)
It matters not who responds,
male or female, because a man seeks : brotherhood as well. But a female
is who I owe my life to. And I want to show that gratitude to my queen
mother. Some do wrong and then die thinking them did right. Some
do wrong and then understand that it was wrong. Simply that, thats the
people I belong to. The crime I am charged with matters not at this
time. I'd rather tell my story on a personal note but every now and
then I'll add to my webpage. It depends on how I feel. Give me
a chance, let me make a move, I'm sure I can become a worthy friend.
To be honest, I don't think
I have had a real friend since I was maybe 5 or 6 years old. At that
time you still have trust in everyone. You know ? I also ask that
if you contact me, that you should know being close to me will not be easy.
I mean for you, I'm open here for you to read me as a book. But
some of the things you find out will not be all candy and roses. I'm
just keeping it real.
Being on Death Row tends
to make you cold, not because you want to be, but because everyone else is.
So you just keep to yourself. Here on this new unit, you are forced
to be by yourself, you are locked into an almost sound proofed cell, screaming
all you want. No one outside of a few cells down can hear you.
Better hope you don't have a serious problem or that the guards are not busy
reading their good book because then they'll not see you blinking your lights,
or thats the way you tell them that you need something. Things
are so different, times are changing they really are.
I think I should bring this
to a close, I've said enough for today. Look forward to reading more
from me. Just the start of a new thing for me. I'm just a child
when it comes to the internet. Maybe in a months time I'll update.
Then every week after.
Thank you for your time.
Once again if you would like to know more on a up close and personal my
address is as follows (fluent in Spanish and English.)
Sincerely seeking a friend
JOSE MEDELLIN #
999134
Polunsky
Unit D.R.
12002 FM 350 South
Livingston Texas 77351
USA
There is a scheme to
life, to all of its various happenings
and events to everything
we do within the time alloted
to us. We can understand
that scheme if we let ourselves,
if we do not become frightened
of the knowing
knowledge is not enough
if there is not also acceptance
of that knowledge then
comes wisdom, regardless of age
anyone can share their
knowledge and their wisdom with you,
but once again only you
can learn how to accept it.
That must come from within
us.
To Whom it may concern,
My name is Jose E. Medellin,
I am 24 years old. I was born March 4, 1975 in Nuevo Laredo, Mexico.
I stand 5" 7 ft tall and I weigh 165 pounds. I have brown eyes and
brown hair and I'm currently living on Texas' death row. I am writing
you this letter in hopes to find a penpal and hopefully we can become friends.
Some of my hobbies are reading, military history, drawing, writing, and
exercising. Thats basically what I can do in here. I spend most
of the day in my cell. Well let me tell you a bit more of myself.
I was born in Mexico, but at the age of 9 years old I came to live with my
parents in Houston. I went to school there till the tenth grade, after
that I dropped out of school and went to work for a construction company
till I was 18 years old. At that age is when I got arrested and a few
months later I was sitting here on death row. I really hope this fact
won't discourage you from writing me and getting to know me better.
If you are interested in corresponding with me, please write to me at the
address below. Sincerely,
JOSE E MEDELLIN
JOSE MEDELLIN #
999134
Polunsky
Unit D.R.
12002 FM 350 South
Livingston Texas
77351 USA
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