You're life is over
                            It will end with this State
                            You can't imagine how it felt
                                To hear this kind of fate
                                From this moment on
                                You no longer exist
                                You'll be taken away
                             Someplace beyond this
                                Each day you get up
                            And begin with a prayer
                    Because if not you are racked
                                In grief and despair
                            You want to meet people
                                Stronger than life
                    Come to death row and sit by
                                     My side
                 Close your eves and envision a cage
                          It's where you work and
                                   You sleep
                             Its even where you play
                    Yet still you'll see strength
                           Beyond anything
                          You've even imagined
                         In your wildest dreams
                             It's a way of life
                         At least now for me
                            Until the day comes
                     And somehow I'll be free...

WE walk into this place
Broken and bent
With our heads bowed low
We had no idea
What all of this meant
As the cloud begins to lift
And our feelings come back in tune
We slowly look around us
At our new life we are
Beginning
In this one little room
From a world with out boundaries
Where you're dreams
Reach the sky
To the same incessant question
You ask over and over
"WHY"
Our world is stripped of color
Turned to brick and steel
As we look around and realize
It doesn't matter
How we feel
'We now answer to a new name
With a number on our back
We watch people come and go
Along with fear
and sorrow
Too
Never quite knowing
Exactly what to do
We no longer have a choice
Of what goes on
In our lives
That choice has been
Turned over
For others to decide
'We pay for our mistakes early
Baring them each and everyday
I will never be able
To forget this
There's absolutely no-way
Our hearts begin
To put up walls
To shield us from the pain
Either we fight for
Everything its worth
Or we bow our heads in shame
Some of us choose
To keep our feelings
To fight For what we have left
Instead of handing them over
Like a possession
They have kept
You may hold my body in chains
But my soul
You will never claim

I never in my life
knew this pain
could be so real

I want someone to know
to understand how I feel

I sit here surrounded
By so many others

Yet no-one understands
no-one even bothers

I want to scream
Someone please

But I'm looked
Over casually

Everything remains the
nothing ever gives

The strength from my pain
Runs directly to my heart

There deep, never ending
You couldn't tear them apart

I want things to change
Yet everything always
Remains the same...

I saw you in my dreams last night
And I couldn't believe my eyes.
You were really there with me
Standing by my side.
We took a walk along the beach
And I could smell the sea.
I could feel the sand beneath my feet,
I knew it couldn't be.
I stopped and looked into your eyes,
I could see the love in there.
You slowly bent and kissed my lips.
It was a dream, but I didn't care.
I could feel the strength in you enbace
And the softness of your kiss.
I wanted to savor everything,
There was nothing I wanted to miss.
I held you close to my heart,
And kissed you everywhere.
I was scared if I let you go
That you would no longer be there.
I wanted to remember everything,
Your voice, your smell, your touch.
You were really there with me.
I wanted you so much.
I laid a blanket upon the sand,
And slowly we made love.
Being with you was ecstasy
Beneath the stars above.
I lay with you upon the sand
wishing this dream would never end.
I wished away the morning.
Knowing you would be gone.
But eventually dawn crept in
And I thought "Life is so unfair."
I closed my eyes
And remembered last night
     You were really there.

         

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